May 30, 2007

Diaries

Man

The last few days have been such that I have decided to write things down. I am not much of a writer, but I just want to record the events for future reference. You see, I have this nagging suspicion that things are not as they appear, that everyone around me is wearing a mask, watching my every move, uttering memorized lines while speaking to me. You may think I am being paranoid, but let me start at the beginning and let you be the judge.

Last Sunday I woke up without a memory. I didnt know who I was, where I was, what I was. I dialled random numbers from my cell phone, different people called me different names and spoke to me in different languages and I didnt have the guts to ask them how I knew them or how they knew me. I spent the entire day in terrified loneliness, totally helpless and desperate with no idea what the next step should be. It was then that the doorbell rang and I opened the door to find a beautiful woman standing there..and when I looked into her eyes I knew that she was my lover. It all came out then, my fear and my helplessness, and she took me in her arms and I knew things will be all right. We discussed our future and she told me not to worry, that we should let time heal things. She has moved in with me and in the evenings, we lie in each other's arms and she tells me how I used to love her, about the wonderful moments we had shared, and the beautiful life that lay ahead of us. Looking into her eyes, I believe her.

Wife

That's it. Its been over a week now. No contact, no news. No responses to messages. I think I have had it. Probably its best that this ends this way. We were meandering towards nothingness and I guess its fitting that the end came as a fizzle rather than a bang. Anyway, I sincerely hope he has a happy life..and I desperately hope that I do too.

Lover

This will be the last entry before I burn the diary. All the pages filled with angst and tears after he dumped me are behind me now. I always believed that if I didnt give up hope he will come back to again some day. The months of playing 'good friends' are thankfully gone. He is now mine. Completely. And forever.

15 comments:

Ghetufool said...

God!!

no wonder you get a fitting silence from your wife.

i fully support her.

Shuv said...

eh?

Ghetufool said...

ok, after a second read, i guess, i got the message wrong. i retract.

Sayantani said...

hahaha, too much ghetu! what did you read?! :D

Ghetufool said...

it was she in the begining, but at the end it became he. i was perplexed.

yaa, before you can boo me, i am a bit conservative and prefer the right thing at the right place.

Scout said...

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind?? if only life were this simple :)

Shuv said...

its a record! i havent understood a single comment..

Vikas said...

aajkal fiction likhna chhod diya? This story seems so true as it had almost happened with 2 guys i know and myself....

kaushik said...

Shuv: U didt understand the comments? I didnt understand the post. You need your family around you very soon. Or else this 'woman' will keep knocking and some other 'women' will 'do'.

But it wont darn change a thing.

Sayantani said...

c'mon kaushik, ekhane thuke ar labh nei...the fun's lost!

and shuv, catch up man!

Shuv said...

i am astounded by the comments. this was supposed to be a work of fiction about a guy who gets amnesia and a woman who convinces him that they are in love. where did i or my family or my wife came in remains a mystery.

Anonymous said...

Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind?!! (hey scout..our great minds think alike! hehee)

Heartbreaking, really..we can run but we can never hide!

(urgh! this blogger thingie is acting very strange..not letting me comment!)
- Gypsy

Shuv said...

another comment i didnt understand..thanks gypsy..doh!!

rip van winkle said...

GREAT!!..wonderful combination..in fact the best i guess..

nobody has understood your post..and you have not understood any of their comments... amazing!

i think you've finally made it..shuv..

Shuv said...

thanks RIP..but i was really amazed by the comments..thankfully someone got it..